Africa Journal September 2

9/2/2013

Today, I am very disappointed. I feel like I'm a failure and that coming here was a waste of time and money. Not one single student chose to take classes with me. Tomorrow, they will all go to their crapy public school and I will spend all day alone here doing everything except what I came here to do. I tried explaining to the kids and persuading them that school with me will be better, but when it came down to the choice, none of them believed that I could actually teach them better than their public school teachers. Jana says that they're just not ready for a better education. I keep trying to tell myself that and it's not my fault. Still, I feel like I didn't do a good enough job showing them that I can teach them. If it didn't cost so much money, I think I'd go home right now. There's no point in me staying here when there's no one for me to teach.

I know Heavenly Father sent me here for a good reason. Right now, I'm having a hard time understanding that reason. I'm sure, when I'm less upset, I'll be more rational.